I have this weird thing that I do in order to prepare for stuff that I am excited for. It’s really weird. Ready?

I plan.

Yes, plan. But not in the way that you’re thinking, oh no. Not normal, “oh, how do I get there, what do I do” planning. I mean I really plan shit out.

For example, a few weeks ago my cousin and I went into New York City for the day. A couple of nights before, I decided to research exactly which subway routes would be most efficient, print out schedules for each line we would be taking, and plot a map. All in all, I stayed up until 4 a.m. doing all of this, for no real reason other than I wanted to because I was excited for the trip. I really didn’t even need to plan much at all; I know my way around NYC well enough that I could have gotten by fine without researching every detail of the NYC subway system.

Here’s another example; I’m leaving for college in a few weeks, and I’ve been packing all of the stuff that I’ll be needing for my dorm. I started with one list of all the items I needed. Then, I decided to split that list into what I’d bring with me and what I’d buy up at college. THEN, I divided it into what I could pack now vs. what I could pack later. And THEN I divided that further into what goes in what container. And it’s gotten to the point where I’m going to need a list of lists.

I think I do it partly to keep myself occupied and excited for whatever the exciting event is, because otherwise I think I’d just sit and be thinking “can’twaitcan’twaitcan’twait” until it happens, which is a state I cannot exist in for long periods of time. But during these times I also get almost nothing else done, which pretty much means if I get excited about a thing, anything I need to do that is unrelated to the exciting thing does not get done.

So I guess, until I actually leave for college, I will be checking off items on all of my lists. Well, at least I’ll have an inventory of all my shit when I’m up at college.


About KainWithStructure

Author of "Form Without Structure", a blog about life, in general. Maybe. We'll see. Follow @RebelKZM on Twitter.
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